Concluding CaringBridge – Aug 9, 2011

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The following entry is my intended last on Caringbridge (for many reason which will be explained below), and has taken quite awhile to put together. You will notice little separations between thoughts or experiences, which was sometimes a way of shifting to a different topic, or sometimes a break in time. Not all of these [...]

Because You Were Born – June 10, 2011

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Today is Heather’s birthday. Thanks for the well wishes, the emails, the texts, the planned parties to honor (thanks Kim & Jenny, and Tosha), the tortillas (perfect, Julie, just perfect), the 3-miles somethings (love it, Tanya), and for all of the past support and love. I read up on our entries two years ago from [...]

Because She Left Me – June 2, 2010

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This is an entry with journal writings from a week ago, and then from tonight. My love to you all. May 23rd, 2011 There are these little things that I resent – little things that are big things to me. Like today, for example, when I set up an internet account and the service professional [...]

18 Months Since – May 28, 2011

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Today was 18 full months since Heather died laying in my arms. I had some things written out, and even some more thoughts to add, but I suppose I can post them later. All of it was true and difficult, and all of it reflects that things aren’t better. I laughed today, I enjoyed my [...]

From Savior To Mentor – May 12, 2011

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There’s just a few things I was thinking about and wanted to record. The fact that I’m remembering and feeling the things I am today are surely fueled by the fact that I’m going on the fifth day of being annoyingly sick – you know, the kind where you’re not ill enough to excuse not [...]

They Don’t Read Anymore – May 6, 2011

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It has been six weeks since I last posted something on CaringBridge. I have never before, in this experience, gone that long without posting something. There are probably fifty pages of things I wrote to put in this online journal that I just couldn’t or didn’t put here for so many various reasons. My grief [...]

The Losses Keep Happening – March 17, 2011

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I struck me just two days ago that it seems sad Heather and I aren’t together in the way it would be sad if nobody could ever eat peanut butter and jelly together again. I’m just really good at being with her; we were good at being partners in everything we did. I’ve had some [...]

Resisting the Tide – March 8, 2011

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Things are a bit rough right now; I’d say the tide came back in after being out for awhile, but now I feel submerged again. I have stayed close to my realizations from three weeks ago, but I also have observed about life that so often when the right path is lighted before me, all [...]

Missing My Partner – February 15, 2011

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February 15, 2011 I wrote a lot yesterday, and have posted it below, finished up with my thank you’s I wrote today. Earlier this afternoon, I drove by a place Heather and I had once gone to dinner and was flooded with the memory of it. Then I drove by an Albertson’s grocery store where [...]

A Second Valentine’s – February 13, 2011

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The process of grief has been evolving. I have felt different things over the last couple of months as I feel time move on. Obviously, though, I’ve progressed through the calendar to land, once again, on Valentine’s Day. I say to other people that I hope they use the day to celebrate someone they love, [...]