There’s always a challenge in front of me after not posting for a little while; the things I wanted to say, or that really felt important to express, grow to such a number that the task of writing them all becomes overwhelming. It’s a phenomena I think there needs to be a word for – [...]
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In the story of our family, the Wednesday before Heather died was full and significant. It was a day where the height of reality violently buzzed through every cell in my body. I simply couldn’t decide if I knew she was dying or if I was just allowing doubt to fill my being – doubt [...]
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Because my chilis have the week off from school, I didn’t have to be up as early to get ready to go to work myself. Consequently, I pushed my snooze button three times. And, not surprisingly, the kiddos – who had all asked to sleep in my bed last night – had already advanced downstairs [...]
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It’s just a day, right? Yesterday – it was just a day. That’s actually completely true. It was a Monday, so I did the regular routine. We get up at 7:30, the kids get dressed in the clothes I laid out, and Grandpa Scott helps them start breakfast by 8:00 so we can be on [...]
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I want to talk about the gone-ness of Heather for a minute. You know… again. My friend Erin was over visiting today, and I felt really acknowledged as we talked about the relationship I had with my girl, Heather. I have a hard time, quite often, explaining why a future relationship of any kind seems [...]
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Part 2 In considering the truths about loss that are permeating my self while populating my blog with the old CaringBridge journal entries, I was trying to stay in my moment and breathe – even though the moment felt sorrowful and difficult – and wanted to take note of one other thing that loss brings. [...]
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I just wanted to make a mention about grief. A few things tough about the truth of loss, I think. As I have prepared my website/blog, there has been a lot of rewarding and wonderful work that has gone into the process. Included in that, is the fact that I’ve tried to launch the blog [...]
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Today brought with it one of those mornings where the smell of change is in the air. The season is turning to fall, and the feel of that is starting to seep into my bones. The morning is a little bit cooler, and Starbucks just brought back its Pumpkin Spice flavor, so I picked up [...]
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In our week, between school on weekdays, and dance class on Saturday, a Sunday morning is the only opportunity I might have for “sleeping in”. By this, I cannot imply that I may sleep until eight or nine-o-clock (much less the eleven or twelve of yester-years college days); no, my children still awaken at the [...]
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A little fair warning… I actually wrote this entry a bit selfishly, in that I used words familiar in the Mormon vernacular (i.e. “ward”, which in common Christian sects would be equivalent to a congregation) because I was feeling my feelings while I wrote it and didn’t want to define it all out. I hope [...]
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